Timing, Writing, and Letting Go - A Saturnine Reflection
I have always wanted to write. For as long as I can remember, the idea of putting pen to paper or typing my little heart out has been both thrilling and terrifying. I’ve always known that writing could be a form of release, something that would help me process my own thoughts and maybe even offer something meaningful to others. But the fear of judgment, especially from the people I love most, held me back. For too many years, I let that fear paralyze me. I told myself that if it couldn’t be perfect, if I couldn’t guarantee my work and words would be received the way I intended, it was safer not to share at all. Over time, though, life taught me the same lesson until I finally understood it: I cannot control what other people think of me, and that is okay. Talk about a lesson in giving up control!
With Saturn retrograding back into Pisces, I feel myself in another period of review. I’m examining the structures I’ve built and the rules I’ve created for myself. Are my boundaries serving me, or have they begun to block blessings meant for me? Am I honoring my time, or am I letting it slip away by saying yes too often or neglecting what truly matters? Retrogrades are mirrors. They invite us to pause, reassess, and realign. For me, this season is about softening where I’ve been too rigid and adding structure where I’ve been too fluid. Reflection, I’ve learned, isn’t about judgment. It is about awareness and the willingness to meet myself exactly where I am. Timing is everything. Time is like one of those moving walkways at the airport, quietly carrying you forward whether you realize it or not.
As I reflect, I understand why I couldn’t have done this sooner. If I had written years ago, the words would have been different. They would have been raw, tangled in emotions I hadn’t yet processed. What I once saw as a creative block was really timing telling me it wasn’t the right moment. I needed to live more, to hurt, to heal, and to grow into the perspective I have now. I see now that the block was part of the plan. Saturn has a way of slowing us down until we are ready to hold the lessons we need. The limiting thoughts that once echoed so loudly have quieted, dissolving the barrier between me and my voice. I feel safer now, more grounded in the creative space I’ve always wanted to inhabit. The timing, the lessons, the release - they were all preparing me for this moment. And this release of control feels different. With Virgo season here, bringing its steady, grounding energy, I sense more flow and ease as I move forward. Loosening my grip has opened space for clarity, creativity, and the quiet confidence that this path is unfolding as it should. It feels nice to be here.
And a few other areas I can see clear manifestations - In my classroom, I create structure but allow room for flow and adaptability. Outside of work, I’ve committed to practices that keep me grounded. Yoga has become a weekly ritual, especially on Wednesday evenings, a midweek space to reset and reconnect with my body and mind. In my personal life, I work daily on routines that support my mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual wellness. I am vocal about my goals, and I am intentional about managing my time in order to reach them - and people have been open and incredibly supportive. Also, as it turns out, I like being responsible. I like being reliable, strong, and steady for the people around me. I like being able to lead when the moment calls for it. Over time, I’ve been cultivating what I call my “inner Saturn,” a sense of discipline and balance that keeps me clear and steady. When I ask myself if I’m proud of the changes I’ve made and the person I’ve become, the answer is yes. Of course, I still have vices. Of course, there is still work to do. But it’s work I enjoy, and this reflective season only deepens that sense of purpose.
I am really digging this pocket of time and the energy we’re being served. It’s like a giant exhale. With Virgo season encouraging us to refine and ground ourselves in the details of daily life, there is a sense of harmony between Saturn’s long-term lessons and the rhythms that keep me present. Growth, I’ve realized, happens in the quiet consistency of showing up for yourself day after day.
As I open this space, my hope is that the reflections, stories, and insights I share here spark something in you - a moment of recognition, a giant sigh of relief, or a reminder that you are not alone in whatever season you’re in. Timing truly is everything. And if you’ve found these words, maybe the timing is right for you too.
Until next time,
Autumn